I have been struggling since we came back from vacation to catch up on regular life, and had no energy left over for posting. Right now the priority is actually journaling everyday if possible, and inter webbing when I can. As far as I can tell I picked something on on the initial voyage out of town, and it has been over two weeks now and it keeps hanging on. Oh well.
In past years, my emphasis has been more on the materials and exploring a different technique. This year I decided to focus on just really letting down my guard and writing, especially if it was just random thoughts in my head, and sketching bits and pieces as might fly by. Just relaxing into a less judgmental way of journaling.
In many ways, I don't like the term "inner critic" because it doesn't feel like I'm being critical of myself, I'm pretty much ok with my state of ability. But what I have seen as I continue to journal, is that I have there is a lot of background noise in my head about "waste", "interesting","worth" and as much as that, some odd rules that are floating in my head and keep knocking into that are just made up restrictions and have nothing to do with what I want to actually do. Sometimes I don't realize I'm cramping my own style till I see someone else's work that really speaks to me and shakes up my thinking.
In this journal, my character sketches on the edges of her pages a great deal, and just doing that revealed a great deal to me about her, her thinking and her emotional state. I love the little detail of that and how it crystalized some thinking in my own head.
Anyway, I have to scan my next pages. Here's to improved energy.
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